Stepping into the Real World

Hello, my friends!

It's been a loooooooong while since I last posted here and I'm back...for now.

So what's keeping me extra busy these past months? Well, I've only started college and I did not expect that it could be so stressful. A lot of things happened to me, and that includes me, almost *cough* falling in love *cough* (hahahaha yes... i hope mother won't see this) TAKE NOTE: ALMOST. That means I didn't fell 100% in love. And me adjusting to the college culture. What do I mean with that? I only realized that highschool is a lot different than college, trust me. Especially for me because I came from an all-girls school and suddenly jumping to the real world with boys in it. Err yes, I highlighted that because I admit that I didn't have a lot of experience in highschool involving boys such as having social interactions with them, face to face. I did have guy friends though, but none of them ever got close to me personally.

Let me tell you my story about some things that happened in my first and second-half semester in college, as an Engineering student with zero experience on handling computer hardware stuff. I'm not going to tell you everything though, since some of the things are quite personal. At the start of the first few weeks, everything's going so well. I met a lot of new friends, I encountered new things, particularly a lot of adult things. No don't worry, I did not try drugs, and never ever will. I did party a little though. (Shhh, let's keep it a secret from adult people around, hahaha) And my oldfriends know that I am not a party girl. Promise. And because I met a lot of new people in my university, that includes people my age and people a little older than me, it made me think that I am capable of doing things I've never tried before. Like this one, I've chosen to be a muse for basketball team of Eng'g Society (one organization at my university) AND DUDES, I. DID. NOT. SEE. THAT. COMING. AT. ALL. Not to brag about it or anything, but honestly, there are other girls out there who are completely perfect for this title, I mean it's not like its a big thing in college though, but for me it is. It was such an honor that this happened and I accepted it because I was thinking, I could meet more friends because of this, and also, it could be my one big step of having a little confidence, since I developed shyness when I stepped into college. But guess what? the people I met? my new friends? they are the ones who made me feel like I somehow belong to the real world and that somehow I could do things I didn't think I was capable of. So yeah, if ever some of them are reading this, it might sound cheesy, but THANK YOU. For believing in me even if we just met.

Moving on, I told you guys i took Computer Engineering as my major, right? And so far, so good. Yes, I'm starting to like it and i'm slowly adjusting to the new atmosphere. I think I do belong to this field, after all. I can already see myself working on a technology company a few years from now. I just hope that I could overcome all the challenges I'd face through college. Godspeed to me...

Maybe there is a reason why things happen, after all. And often times, we don't see it coming. But sometimes I wish I knew that reason. My faith in God has never changed throughout the years and I believe that He's the reason why these things that happens to me occurs. It's not that I blame Him for the flaws and the bad things, it's just that I think it's all part of His plan for me. I can't really say that I'm a hundred percent sure about this, just to be clear, all of these are just what I think. All that ever happened to me recently are lessons, I think. Lessons that are yet to be learned. That includes me, falling in love in a wrong time. I wouldn't say it as "falling in love" though, since I'm quite aware that whatever happened that time wasn't "love". Most people my age are still in the stage of curiousness and with our raging hormones, we do things recklessly because some of us wants to experience the things we didn't know before when we were innocent. I'm not saying that I do clumsy things a lot, it's just that sometimes we can't stop things from happening because we also want it bad to happen.

So my advice? Do what you want to do. Do what makes you happy. Get out of your comfort zone in order to see what the world really is. It's scary, yeah. But heck, Life is full of surprises and you'll never know what awesome thing might happen! (that includes your crush noticing you)...



Good luck!!!
Always,
-AJ ♡
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