Heart + Break

Heartbreak is something most of us can hardly handle. It's something that we avoid, something that triggers us to do reckless things, something that can change ourselves and our lives, and something that can shatter us very badly.

Personally, I've never been hurt entirely in my life. Maybe just a few glitches along the way of growing up and discovering myself as I hit puberty, but not that kind of pain that can kill you from the inside, literally. But I did knew it, somehow, by watching someone in front of me break down into tears and experience true heartbreak. It was awfully terrible just watching that person let out his/her feelings and you just stand there dumbfounded, not having an idea on what to do.

To be honest, I am that kind of person that when someone cries in front of me, I don't know what to do. I'm very awkward on handling those sort of things, but I do try my best to comfort that person. I'm not an expert as well in giving words of wisdom to make them feel better because I know a thousand words wouldn't heal them physically and emotionally.

But, no matter what, I would always care about these people who go through with this kind of situation and will do anything to help them in their battles to find their way back. Like I've always said, life isn't perfect, and it never will. We experience ups and downs, like having a broken heart. But through that, we live life. What I mean is, going out there and falling in love, hard, and then having our heart broken is one of the many ways how we can live our lives to the fullest. They say we only live once, I disagree. As a matter of fact, we live everyday. We wake up everyday and face the world, having another chance to see it's beauty. And we die once. But it doesn't mean death could be the option to our problems. It never is.

all photos are from tumblr.

Hold on, angel. Pain will end.

Always,

-AJ ♡

x

(This post is dedicated to my bestfriend, Belle. Restez forts.)

HATE

"U suck"

"You are worthless"

"B*tch, slut, skank, ugly, wh*re, fat"

These are just some of the things I saw around the internet. People always seem to get use to the fact that they can judge however, or whatever they like to people whom they do not know at all, or maybe if they knew them, they won't stop sending him or her hates by saying what they want and posting it on the web. It's not like I'm saying anything that can offense them, and they also have a right to express their feelings. And so do I. Me, an ordinary person that somehow received hates in the past, a girl who has also feelings, a woman that doesn't like to get involved on fights, a human being that could also break down. But I'm sure I can't be the only one who has faced this kind of trouble in life. After all, this isn't a perfect world, and no matter what, we all break down at some point, maybe cry at night, and feel depressed. And that's life, right? It's perfectly normal to experience these things, according to society.

But let me, just a nobody, ask you something. Do you really just want to stay in your room all day, crying and recalling in your mind everything that said something bad about you? Do you want to avoid everyone just because you've once experience how it feels like to get bullied? Do you really feel like you have the power to judge every person you see and you think you can make them a little less important in the world? Do you really feel like you can crush their feelings and if they break down, does it makes you powerful, and famous, and noticeable?

Think twice. Don't let your demons get to you just because you feel like no one understands you. I'm pretty sure we've all been there before. And never lose hope. You could probably lose everything, but keep your hopes up. Remember, saying bad things to others doesn't make you a better person. Words can hurt badly. I've learned this from experience, and from experience of my close friends. If you think you could be powerful from putting people down, it's like the other way around. There are about 7 billion people in the world, why let ONE of them bring you down? God didn't created it perfectly, but He gave it to us to let us know what the real meaning of "Life" is, and from that, we slowly learn our lessons and discover our true selves.

If you feel like giving up, pray. Believe me, it may seem like nobody is listening to you, but there is one who certainly does. God may not give you exact answers that you want, but He thinks a better way for it.

Keep your heads up and stay strong. I might not have said anything that can change your state right now, but please, don't give up. Sometimes we may have to put our prides a little lower so that it will bring us to a better situation, a peaceful one. Don't let you inner devil dominate your whole being just because you feet like you are losing. Never ever lose hope. Remember, we aren't perfect, and it is okay to cry and let all your feelings out, but don't let them get to you. Trust yourself, and most of all, Pray.

Stay Strong, angel. And good luck.

Always,
Anne Janelle ♡